Before we get started…

I had a conversation recently with someone who's been out of his affair for almost a year. He's doing the work and his marriage is slowly rebuilding. But he wanted to talk because he was stuck on one question he couldn't shake: "What if it really was love? What if I walked away from the real thing?"

I didn't jump in with an answer. I just let him sit with it for a minute. Because what I've learned is that question typically isn't really about the affair partner. It's about whether he can trust himself. Whether his feelings meant what he thought they meant. Whether he made the biggest mistake of his life by ending it, or whether he's finally starting to see clearly.

This week, I want to talk about the difference between love and limerence. Not to shame or doubt you for what you felt, but to help you understand what you most likely were actually experiencing. Because until you see it clearly, you’ll keep second-guessing yourself. And that doubt will keep you stuck.

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Was it True Love or Was it Limerence?

Here's the question almost everyone asks at some point after an affair ends: "But what if it was real? What if what I felt was actually love, and I just gave up on it because everyone told me it was wrong?"

I get it. The feelings were intense. They felt more real than anything you'd experienced in years, maybe ever. You thought about this person constantly. You felt alive around them. You believed, at least for a while, that this was what you'd been missing your whole life. So how do you know if it was love or just limerence?

The short answer is that limerence feels like love, but it's not built like love. It's built like infatuation on steroids. It's obsessive, consuming, and almost entirely focused on how the other person makes you feel about yourself. Real love is quieter and steadier. And it doesn't require secrecy, fantasy, or the collapse of your entire life to survive.

Let me break that down a bit.

Limerence Thrives on Obstacles

Limerence thrives on uncertainty and obstacles. The not-knowing is part of the high. Will they text back? Do they feel the same way? What does that look mean? The tension keeps your brain flooded with dopamine.

You're not just attracted to the person. You're addicted to the state they put you in. And here's the kicker: the harder it is to be together, the more intense it feels. Distance, secrecy, the risk of getting caught, all of it amplifies the emotional charge. That's not love. That's your brain getting high on scarcity and danger.

Real love, the kind that lasts, doesn't need obstacles to feel meaningful. It deepens when life gets boring, when you see each other at your worst, when you have to navigate conflict or disappointment and choose to stay anyway.

Limerence can't survive that. It needs the fantasy. The moment you try to turn it into a real relationship with real consequences, groceries, bills, blended families, shared responsibilities, the magic starts to fade. Because it was never about building a life together. It was about escaping the life you had.

It's All About You

Another hallmark of limerence is that it's almost entirely focused inward. You think you're in love with the other person, but if you're honest, most of what you're feeling is about you. It’s about how they see you and how they make you feel. The version of yourself you get to be around them. You're not asking, "What does this person actually need from me?" or "Can I show up for them when it's hard?" You're asking, "Do they still want me? Do I still feel this way?" That's not intimacy. It's a mirror.

Love asks different questions. It notices the other person as a separate human being with flaws, fears, and needs that have nothing to do with you. It's willing to be disappointed and stay. It doesn't require constant validation or the perfect emotional temperature to keep going. Limerence collapses the moment reality steps into the room. Love is what's left after reality has been there the whole time.

How to Tell the Difference

So how do you know which one you had? Here are a few things to consider.

• If the relationship only felt good when it was secret, hard to access, or dependent on sneaking around, that's limerence.

• If you never had to deal with their bad moods, their annoying habits, or their need for space when you wanted closeness, that's limerence.

• If the idea of actually being with them full-time (with all the mundane, unsexy parts of life included) makes you feel anxious or uncertain, that's limerence.

• And if you can't imagine the relationship surviving without the intensity, the longing, or the emotional urgency, that's limerence.

None of this means your feelings weren't real. They were. But real feelings don't automatically mean real love. Sometimes they just mean you were in a heightened emotional state that your brain mistook for connection.

And perhaps the hardest part is that even if you know it was limerence, you might still miss it. You might still wonder. You might still feel grief over losing it. That's okay. Grief doesn't mean you made the wrong choice. It just means you're human, and letting go of something that felt that good is hard, even when you know it wasn't sustainable.

The work now isn't to figure out whether it was "real" love. The work is to understand what you were actually looking for, why limerence felt so necessary, and how to build a life where you don't need that kind of escape to feel okay.

If You Want Some Extra Help

If you're stuck in indecision, pulled between two lives and unsure what you actually want, mentoring can help. Not by telling you what to choose, but by helping you understand what you're really chasing and why limerence felt so necessary in the first place.

Sometimes the issue isn't whether you loved them. It's figuring out what you were running from, what's missing in your real life, and how to build something that doesn't require fantasy to feel okay. Having someone walk with you through that can keep you from spiraling in circles or making decisions you'll regret.

Just reach out when you’re ready.

What I’m Seeing This Week…

I talked with a betrayed spouse this week who told me her husband finally admitted something he'd been avoiding for months. He said something like, "I don't think I ever actually loved her. I think I just loved how I felt when I was with her."

She said it didn't make her feel better, exactly. But it helped her stop wondering if she was competing with some great love story. She wasn't. She was competing with a version of her husband that only existed in a bubble, with someone who never had to see him at his worst or ask him to take out the trash or deal with his anxiety at 2 a.m.

She said (paraphrasing), "I think he's finally starting to see that what he had with her wasn't deeper. It was just easier. And easier isn't the same as real."

She's still hurt and she's still angry. But she's also starting to see that the affair wasn't evidence that their marriage was broken beyond repair. It was evidence that he didn't know how to stay present when things got hard. And that's something they can actually work on, if he's willing.

The takeaway: The affair felt real because the emotions were real. But emotions aren't the same thing as love. Love is what you build after the emotions settle. Limerence is what happens when you mistake intensity for intimacy and never stick around long enough to find out the difference.

Two Small Steps for the Week

For the Relationship

Instead of trying to recreate excitement, focus on consistency.

Do what you say you’re going to do this week, even in small ways. Reliability rebuilds safety faster than intensity ever could.

For Yourself

When you catch yourself longing for the rush you experienced during your affair, pause and ask what you’re actually craving in that moment. Stimulation, reassurance, escape. Then look for another way to meet that need without blowing up your life.

This isn’t about settling for less. It's about choosing something that lasts, even when it doesn't give you that rush the same way. That choice, repeated over time, is where real freedom starts.

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Deeper Dive

If today’s insight hit home and you want support applying it, here’s how we can help

That’s a Wrap!

Here’s what to do if you want real progress:

1. Get clear on your “why.”

The Root Cause Analysis Intensive help you understand the deeper patterns behind the affair so you can finally change them.

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Take one step at a time and take care!

Linda & Doug

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