Before we get started…

I want to start with a confession.

In the early weeks after my affair came out, I honestly thought I was doing pretty well. I had ended the affair. I was showing up. I was answering questions. I was “trying.”

And yet, there were moments when I caught myself thinking, Why are we still here? Why does this keep coming up? Haven’t we talked this to death already?

I didn’t say those words out loud. But they were there.

What I didn’t understand then is that I was measuring progress by my discomfort level. If things felt calmer to me, I assumed we were healing. If Linda got triggered, upset, or needed to talk again, part of me quietly (and often out loud) felt frustrated. I thought she was stuck. I thought she couldn’t let it go.

The truth was harder to swallow.

She wasn’t stuck. She was injured.

I was walking around expecting normal relationship logic to apply to something that had fundamentally rewired her sense of safety. I wanted resolution when her nervous system was still on high alert. I wanted reassurance that we’d be okay while she was still trying to figure out what was real.

Once I finally saw that, everything changed. Not magically overnight. But enough that I stopped arguing with the reality of her pain.

That’s what this week’s Mend is about.

It’s about understanding the kind of pain an affair actually creates, and why that understanding matters if healing is going to happen at all.

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The Pain of an Affair Isn’t What You Think It Is

Back when Linda and I were going through affair recovery, I thought I understood how much an affair hurt.

I really didn’t.

I thought I got it because I felt guilty and ashamed. Scared of losing everything. I figured that meant I was “owning it.”

Turns out, I was still standing in the shallow end.

The part many unfaithful partners miss is that the pain of an affair isn’t just emotional hurt. It’s trauma.

This Isn’t About Hurt Feelings

When someone you trust becomes the source of danger, your nervous system doesn’t shrug and move on. It goes on high alert.

That’s why your spouse isn’t “overreacting” months or years later. That’s why a song, a place, a late arrival, or a phone turned face down can blow up an otherwise calm day.

Their body learned something the hard way. It’s telling them, “The person I trusted most wasn’t safe.”

That lesson doesn’t disappear because time passes or because you feel done talking about it.

Why “I Never Meant to Hurt You” Falls Flat

Most unfaithful partners mean it when they say that. But it just misses the point.

Intent doesn’t undo impact.

The pain is measured by what your spouse is still carrying, not by what you hoped would happen or what you told yourself during the affair.

If you’re focused on explaining yourself, defending your progress, or proving you’re different now, you’re probably still protecting you.

Healing starts when that stops.

What Your Spouse May Be Living With

Many betrayed partners deal with things they never signed up for:

• Panic or anxiety out of nowhere

• Sleep that’s wrecked

• A constant sense of being on edge

• Questioning their worth, judgment, and reality

• Feeling foolish for trusting someone they loved

This wasn’t just a loss of trust in you. It shook their trust in themselves. And that’s a big deal.

One Thing to Do Differently This Week

Ask your partner this question:

“What has this been like for you?”

Then do the hardest part…Shut up and listen.

No correcting. No explaining. No defending.

If you feel uncomfortable, good. That means perhaps you’re finally close to the truth.

Understanding the pain of an affair doesn’t fix everything. But without it, nothing real heals.

And if you’re serious about becoming a safer partner, this isn’t optional work.

It’s the foundation.

If this hit close to home and you’re realizing you still don’t fully get it, that’s not a failure. It’s information.

That’s exactly where real change starts.

If You Want Some Extra Help

If you feel stuck between wanting to do the right thing and feeling like it never helps, mentoring can give you steadier footing and help you stay engaged without losing yourself. You don’t have to navigate this part alone.

Just reach out when you’re ready.

What I’m Seeing This Week…

I’ve had several mentoring sessions lately with betrayed spouses who all say some version of the same thing:

“I don’t want to keep bringing this up. I’m not trying to punish them. But it just hits me out of nowhere.”

One woman described it perfectly. She said things will feel calm, even hopeful, and then something small happens. Her husband has a change in tone. He neglects to text her in a timely fashion. Or he makes a casual comment that lands sideways. And suddenly her body reacts before her brain can catch up. Her chest tightens and her thoughts race. She feels bad for not being “past this” already.

What struck me wasn’t the intensity of her reaction. It was how aware she was of it. She knew she wasn’t choosing the spiral. She was actually embarrassed by it.

And yet, her partner kept responding as if this was a communication problem. Like he had to make more explanations and more reassurance.

That gap is where a lot of couples get stuck.

The betrayed spouse is dealing with a nervous system that learned danger the hard way. The unfaithful partner is responding with logic to something that isn’t logical. It’s biological.

When that’s not understood, both people feel alone. One feels broken. The other feels helpless and frustrated.

What helps isn’t better wording. It’s better understanding.

When an unfaithful partner finally sees these moments as trauma responses instead of setbacks - or worse, punishment, the tone of the relationship shifts. Less arguing. Less defending. More steadiness.

And for the betrayed spouse, that steadiness matters more than almost anything else.

Two Small Steps for the Week

1. For Your Relationship

Practice listening without an exit plan.

This week, if your partner brings up the affair, a trigger, or a hard emotion, resist the urge to steer the conversation toward resolution. No fixing. No reassuring. No “but we’ve already talked about this.”

Just listen.

When they pause, try something simple like:
“That makes sense.”
“I can see why that would still hurt.”
“Thank you for telling me.”

Then stop talking.

If you feel the itch to explain yourself, notice it. That urge is about your discomfort, not their healing.

2. For Yourself

Notice when you’re measuring progress by how you feel.

Pay attention this week to moments when you think things like:
“We were doing fine until this came up.”
“I thought we were past this.”
“Why is this still such a big deal?”

Don’t judge yourself for those thoughts. Just notice them.

Then gently reframe them:
This isn’t about me being comfortable. It’s about them feeling safe.

That mindset shift alone can change how you show up more than any perfectly worded apology ever will.

A lot of people who’ve had an affair spend months, even years, trying to figure out why it happened. They circle around guilt, shame, and confusion but never quite get to real answers.

That’s where the Root Cause Analysis Mentoring Program comes in. It’s a simple, focused way to dig deeper and understand what really went wrong beneath the surface. You know…the stuff that keeps you stuck if you don’t face it.

If you’ve been saying things like, “I don’t even know why I did it,” or if your spouse keeps asking that same question and you can’t give a clear answer, this program is for you.

It’s not about blame or excuses. It’s about clarity, honesty, and learning how to make sure it never happens again.

If that sounds like something you need, take a look.

Deeper Dive

If today’s insight hit home and you want support applying it, here’s how we can help

That’s a Wrap!

Here’s what to do if you want real progress:

1. Get clear on your “why.”

The Root Cause Analysis Intensive help you understand the deeper patterns behind the affair so you can finally change them.

2. Learn exactly how to support your spouse.

The Unfaithful Person's Guide shows you what actually helps them feel safer (not what you assume helps).

3. Learn exactly how to support your spouse.

If you’re stuck in guilt, shame, fear, or confusion, individual mentoring gives you steady support and real direction.

Take one step at a time and take care!

Linda & Doug

Emotional Affair Journey

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